When you think about childhood, what toy comes to mind?
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When you were little, what did you dream of becoming some day?
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When was the first time you fell in Love?
We now reach the Guilt Zone! We have all been there I expect. You know the procedure, you do something, you regret doing it, then you are burdened with guilt!
I am pretty sure I started doing things WRONG from a very young age, after all it is all part of growing up, but when I think about the first time I remember doing something wrong, there is no doubt in my mind as to which event wins the prize.
I figure I was about five at the time, could be wrong give or take a year. My Mam had given me 2 coins to put in the Gas Meter, a bit like an early 'pay as you go' system. Anyhow, there I was with the 2 coins, and my logical brain immediately figured out that there was no way ANYONE would know if I only put 1 coin in the meter and put the other one in my pocket! And so I did.
And guess what, my logic was right in part, except for one small detail - the ANYONE, included me. I knew I'd done it, and though even now, I have no memory of what I spent the money on, the GUILT took hold and stayed in my five-year old brain, and stayed and stayed.
We didn't have a lot of money growing up, and I may have been only five, but I knew that much. I also knew, that I had betrayed a trust. Now, I am not saying I articulated it to my brain exactly like I'm telling you now, but I know, I didn't have a good feeling inside me afterwards.
In the general scheme of things, it is not a big deal, but it stayed with me, and maybe on reflection it has turned out to be a good thing; because although, I have often done things that I have felt guilty about afterwards, I think in the main, I learned something really important at a very young age. I learned that the prize isn't always worth the price, and if you think you are going to do something that will cause guilt afterwards, think again, because guilt really ain't a good thing to have in your life.
Now I know all of you out there are PERFECT, but if you happen to remember a tiny incident, or even a mad big one, and it has stayed with you from childhood - like the first time you remember being tempted - Did you do it, or did you not? Spill the beans, you've come to the right place to share!
ALSO - I need to come up with a LABEL/TITLE for these posts, I can't keep listing off previous ones to explain what's going on - so if you have a suggestion, hit me with it. I was thinking about 'WHEN YOU WERE SMALL?'