Following on from:-
When you think about childhood, what toy comes to mind?
When you were little, what did you dream of becoming some day?
When was the first time you fell in Love?
We now reach the Guilt Zone! We have all been there I expect. You know the procedure, you do something, you regret doing it, then you are burdened with guilt!
I am pretty sure I started doing things WRONG from a very young age, after all it is all part of growing up, but when I think about the first time I remember doing something wrong, there is no doubt in my mind as to which event wins the prize.
I figure I was about five at the time, could be wrong give or take a year. My Mam had given me 2 coins to put in the Gas Meter, a bit like an early 'pay as you go' system. Anyhow, there I was with the 2 coins, and my logical brain immediately figured out that there was no way ANYONE would know if I only put 1 coin in the meter and put the other one in my pocket! And so I did.
And guess what, my logic was right in part, except for one small detail - the ANYONE, included me. I knew I'd done it, and though even now, I have no memory of what I spent the money on, the GUILT took hold and stayed in my five-year old brain, and stayed and stayed.
We didn't have a lot of money growing up, and I may have been only five, but I knew that much. I also knew, that I had betrayed a trust. Now, I am not saying I articulated it to my brain exactly like I'm telling you now, but I know, I didn't have a good feeling inside me afterwards.
In the general scheme of things, it is not a big deal, but it stayed with me, and maybe on reflection it has turned out to be a good thing; because although, I have often done things that I have felt guilty about afterwards, I think in the main, I learned something really important at a very young age. I learned that the prize isn't always worth the price, and if you think you are going to do something that will cause guilt afterwards, think again, because guilt really ain't a good thing to have in your life.
Now I know all of you out there are PERFECT, but if you happen to remember a tiny incident, or even a mad big one, and it has stayed with you from childhood - like the first time you remember being tempted - Did you do it, or did you not? Spill the beans, you've come to the right place to share!
ALSO - I need to come up with a LABEL/TITLE for these posts, I can't keep listing off previous ones to explain what's going on - so if you have a suggestion, hit me with it. I was thinking about 'WHEN YOU WERE SMALL?'